I have to retake Maths.

The title sort of speaks for itself on this one.
I got a D in Maths and so am having to retake it, now I know that in the grand scheme of things this really doesn't matter, there are people with way worse problems, people who didn't pass any of their GCSE's, people who can't even go to school and take GCSE's, the list is endlessssssssssss. But for me, this is just annoying.

Its a really rainy, dull, typical English weather type afternoon and I'm trying desperately to motivate myself and actually DO SOME MATHS. So far I've got no where, I sat at the table for about half an hour and spread all of my revision and past papers out from last year and well...that's about it. I'm just so annoyed about having to retake because I did so much revision for it last year! My Uncle's a maths teacher and I spent days with him revising. Did I manage to pass? No. GRRRRR.
I did modular last year too which meant only one exam at the end of the year because I'd done the other ones before, now that I'm retaking I'm doing the linear course which means the entire Maths course spread of two exams. TWO EXAMS EURGHGHGHGHHG. Sorry, hopefully this mood will lift soon and I will actually get something done. My Mum & Dad are just telling me to stop moaning and try and make a start on actually doing something, they're right but I just can't ;)
You know when you just don't even know where to start because there's just too many pieces of paper and stuff that you're supposed to know that you've completely forgotten? That's how I feel...I struggle even to remember what a prime number is and I'm not even over exaggerating. Oh man...okay I'm just feeling even more stressed about this than I was before...shut up Anna...shut up shut up shut up. All I really want to do is get under my duvet cover with a cup of tea and watch Gavin & Stacey...hmm I may do that actually..after I make myself do at least half an hour of proper revision! I can do it!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hah, I think I've gone a bit mental, I need to calm down. I'll probably delete this post tomorrow...but for now, gooodbye, I'm off to revise..maybe...probably. I really wish there was some way to make Maths fun...
But anyway I hope you're having a nice, rainy Sunday afternoon!
xo